Changes............

This morning I actually got out of bed before the boys. If you know my boys, you know that they get up at the crack of dawn and are ready for the day. I, however, can't really function until I've had at least 2 cups of coffee. The morning time is always a struggle for me and it sets the mood for the rest of our day. So today I was up at 6:15 drinking coffee and having some quiet devotional time. It feels really good to be back in the word.

I'm starting fresh today and making some changes in my life. This year has been really hard on me spiritually and emotionally. I have been running from God for so long. I have yearned for a closer relationship with him and I just kept putting it off. I've missed church and having that church family. I have wanted to get my children in church but again, kept putting it off.
I was invited to a church, Inverness Vineyard by some friends. I went several times and loved it. I started taking Carson to Awanas on Wednesday night and he seemed to have fun for a while. I cried every time I went to church because I longed for it and I was overwhelmed with emotions. I stopped going after a few months. God kept working on me and 3 weeks ago I went back to the church I grew up in. WoW! It has changed a lot. I really enjoyed it and of course cried a couple of times. I've gone for 3 weeks now and God is really moving in me. I plan on attending Sunday school next week and I'm hoping that I love it. You can really feel God in that place and I did not use to feel that way when I went there. I really love how involved in our community they are. I am jumping right in and figuring out what I can do to make a difference.

I'm back! I have had way too many thoughts running through my head lately and need to get them organized so stay tuned.

Tragedy

My heart is so heavy tonight. I'm praying for a family who lost their 2 year old in a tragic accident today. Please hug your children tightly because we never know when God may call them home.

Busy, busy days

So much has been going on this week, life has been super crazy. I think the most important thing this week is that my first born has weaned. WOW! It is definitely bittersweet........I mean I never gave much thought to breastfeeding when I was pregnant. I was glad to make it 3 weeks let along 3 years. I will say it has been the most amazing experience and I'm so glad that I had that relationship with him. He still loves to talk about it. He tells me " I like your nursies" or "mommas milk is the best." I hope he remembers nursing as he get's older.

We broke ground on our garden last week. This will be my first "real" garden. My dad is helping me with it and that means so much to me. I remember when I was younger helping my dad and my great grandmother in the garden. It's times like this that I really miss my great grandmother and wish I would have taken the time to learn more from her. We start planting tomorrow and I'm so excited. I hope I can keep Carson and Lucky, our lab under control. Carson thinks it's his own personal dirt pit. He is such a boy! I'll post some pics after we finish tomorrow.

Another exciting thing for me is that we found a church. I have been in spiritual crisis for a while. I have felt God pulling me and I just kept ignoring him. I was invited to Inverness Vineyard church by a friend and I loved it. I've never felt so welcomed and comfortable as I do there. You can feel God in that place and it's just amazing. I signed up for "50 days with Jesus" and it's so good to be reading the bible again and studying the word.

Let's try this again..................

Here's the low down of what has happened since my last update.......

1. Camron Thomas was born on December 14, 2009 at home.
2. We now have a 6 month old yellow lab, named Lucky.
3. We had a young golden retriever, named Ecko. We had to find him a loving him because of his aggression :( We even hired an animal behaviorist and did obedience training with him but he did not like his personal space invaded . I miss him very much.

That's all I can think of at the moment. I'm sure I'll add to the list since my last post was almost a year ago :(