I admit it! I'm a BAD blogger. I always have good intentions but for some reason I can't keep up. I want to keep up because I have such a bad memory and I want to remember the little things in our life. Here is what we have been up to over the last several months :)
Building this

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and this

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We've been really busy :)

The boys are doing great! Carson is taking Taekwondo and just tested for his green stripe belt this week. Here is is getting his award and new belt


He is 4 and he amazes me. He speaks really well and he is so bright for his age. He has a very "spunky" personality and certainly keeps me on my toes.

Camron is now 20 months and he could be the poster child for "all boy." This child never slows down. He also speaks very well for his age and is curious about everything. There is nothing he won't climb and jump off of.

We found out that #3 is also a boy :) I predict a lot of loud, wrestling matches later on in this house.
I love my boys! I feel like a referee some days with all the brotherly quarrels. Each day also has those moments were I catch Carson kissing Cam and telling him "I love you" or putting a band aid on his "boo boo." I hope they always have a close bond and look out for each other.

Well,

God obviously has more plans for me than I knew. Baby Pyper #3 will be debuting sometime in November :)

Where to begin?

I have this problem of being overwhelmed and not knowing where to start so I just don't start. As a parent, I struggle with protecting my children from the harsh ways of our world or showing them, so that they are aware. There is so much suffering in this world. My heart aches for so many of God's children. I have a strong desire to help orphans, to rescue those in war torn countries, those who do not have clean water to drink or food to eat, those who are abused. I want to share the gospel with those who have never heard it. I have felt so hopeless over the last several months. So much hurt and suffering and I am just one person. How do I make a difference? The truth is we can ALL make a difference. I'm so glad that God has laid these things on my heart. I'm so glad to be a part of a church family that is helping me be able to make a difference and encouraging me in things I am doing.

I think because I had turned away from God for so long that now I feel like I'm dehydrated and I can't get enough of him, of his word, of really living for him. I pray every day that my husband will share that same passion with me. I want to be able to live by example for my children and not just "talk the talk." I get so mad at myself sometimes when I look back and wonder "What was I thinking?" Seriously, "Why would I ever think my way is better than his way?" It's taking a lot of praying to really let go of some guilt and frustration that I had over things I have done in my life. Thank God he is so forgiving and loving!

I've been a single parent for a few days and I HATE it. B had to go to California for a sales meeting and will be home Sunday. We miss him terribly. I'm just not a happy camper when my family is not together. I've been letting Carson stay up late since daddy is not here. I think it's more for me than him. We've had a rough time lately so any one on one time I can squeeze in is good. I don't know who coined the phrase "terrible two's" because the three's have been rough. I have a little ball of fire on my hands. He get's that from his dad, certainly not from me.

It's interesting to see him and Camron together. Carson is very independent and Camron is very much a momma's boy. They get along most of the time but Carson likes to knock him down and play fight, which usually results in Camron crying. I have noticed that when one of them is not around the other one goes looking for them. Me and Carson are going to a birthday party tomorrow and my mom is keeping Camron. Carson was actually upset earlier because he wanted Camron to go. I know they will have their differences but I hope they will always have a special bond. I always wanted my children close in age in hopes that they would be close.

We went to Taekwondo tonight. This is his third week of class and he seems to really like it. I think he has gotten in trouble more than he is used to but he seems to be doing okay. He looks so cute in his uniform. I had to turn in his top tonight for patches but I'll post a picture later. I really think this will be good for him. He has soooo much energy and really needs something to focus that energy on (besides his brother).
Well, he is dozing off here beside me so I guess it's bed time. Night, night.

Changes............

This morning I actually got out of bed before the boys. If you know my boys, you know that they get up at the crack of dawn and are ready for the day. I, however, can't really function until I've had at least 2 cups of coffee. The morning time is always a struggle for me and it sets the mood for the rest of our day. So today I was up at 6:15 drinking coffee and having some quiet devotional time. It feels really good to be back in the word.

I'm starting fresh today and making some changes in my life. This year has been really hard on me spiritually and emotionally. I have been running from God for so long. I have yearned for a closer relationship with him and I just kept putting it off. I've missed church and having that church family. I have wanted to get my children in church but again, kept putting it off.
I was invited to a church, Inverness Vineyard by some friends. I went several times and loved it. I started taking Carson to Awanas on Wednesday night and he seemed to have fun for a while. I cried every time I went to church because I longed for it and I was overwhelmed with emotions. I stopped going after a few months. God kept working on me and 3 weeks ago I went back to the church I grew up in. WoW! It has changed a lot. I really enjoyed it and of course cried a couple of times. I've gone for 3 weeks now and God is really moving in me. I plan on attending Sunday school next week and I'm hoping that I love it. You can really feel God in that place and I did not use to feel that way when I went there. I really love how involved in our community they are. I am jumping right in and figuring out what I can do to make a difference.

I'm back! I have had way too many thoughts running through my head lately and need to get them organized so stay tuned.

Tragedy

My heart is so heavy tonight. I'm praying for a family who lost their 2 year old in a tragic accident today. Please hug your children tightly because we never know when God may call them home.